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Hmm, I do think my grammar is getting worse, so please, do forgive my mistakes :]

Well, well, well. So this is what we have come to? I just don't really get it.

When you gave your word to someone, you promise them something. And should you be a logic, straightforward, normal person, you hold on to it, you deliver it, you keep it. Why? Breaking promises is bad, I mean seriously, not cool bro. But, there is something worse than breaking promises to others. There is? Of course, and that is breaking the promise that you make to yourself.

Come on, admit it, we all betrayed ourselves at least once. AT LEAST. You, who said you wanna work out and exercise regularly to be fit and all, well now you're still doing nothing and too lazy to break a sweat aite? You, promised to not eat those greasy, oily,fattening, delicious foods, oh well, that last for a week or two then you're back to fast foods, and deep fried meat, good going. You, said that you wanna change, wanna be stronger, to refuse temptation, to repent, to stop all those dirty nasty things you did, well, guess what, you gave out on the smallest test, then you continue falling deep, deep, deeper into the darkest, deepest abyss, saying you wanna change still, but, that's all talk, no action. You, who said that no more frauds, no more cons, no more twist and turns of words, adamant in being honest, straight, turning over a new leaf, well good going, each sentence from you never miss a single slander, and then the "No offense" become your new template speech, great, just great. We, who all promised each other and to ourselves, to be better, for this world, to improve towards greatness together, are now dwelling in competitions, obsessed in individuality, chained by statistical grades, losing practical skills, and will be announced extinct from common sense! Even me, if I may say are blasting all of us of our weakness and darkness with nothing to do to help, even me, typing all this, some will surely think, that I'm some snobby asshole trying to look smart, spouting such garbage, but will I care? Well most probably yes, for a few moments, then? Back to pointing weaknesses, why? Because I am weak, we all are. Unprepared. Easily satisfied. Comforted by feeble things. Discontented by anything that will jeopardize our interest. Again, individuality, in a very dangerous and selfish way.

What's more corrupted than pointing weakness? It is refusing to admit and acknowledge it. Yeah. We do that A LOT. Refusing. Denying. Salah ke? Tidak. Jika kena waktunya. Tapi kalau dah acap kali engkau betul, tidak pernah salah, tidak punya kelemahan, mungkin tiba masa untuk menatap cermin wahai kawan. I myself need to do a lot of self reflection, a long one. You know that ironic feeling when your own words comes back at you? You feel like an idiot, damn weak, like you wanna beat the crap out of yourself. It's not that you are lacking in confidence, no, it's because you realized, you are STRONG, but alas, still you fall helplessly, stupidly, into the hideous, pitch black, lonely, horrifying well that is endless. You know you can get out, but you are just too lazy, too cozy, enjoying that fall, feels like flying, right. Idiot. No, not you. I am.

I can go on and type some more, but, my Statistic's Past Year questions won't complete by their own, and I do suck at it, still not that confident, and then there's Chemistry, man, can we really not be individualistic, exam oriented, and obsessed in academic excellence? Yes we can, but, I don't think it would be easy. Most of us prefer the easy way --> Just keep studying, nothing else matters, grades does. Trying to balance studies and sports, social, bla bla bla seems too time and energy consuming, so many took the passive path. Dude, I really need to stop, maybe I'll write about the path we live life next time, or maybe not, I may just forget about what I typed anyways. Well, not sorry for the quite long post. Let's change something aye? Me and you. So, thank you for reading, do come again, it makes me happy, caffeine will make you want to pee, so yeah, this is Asyraf Zai, signing out!