Worried

So today you missed the 8-9 class. I so wanted to ask why, are you ok, are you sick, do you need today's notes, want me to tell you what happened in class etc. But I know I am not allowed to. I also know today, tomorrow and the day after is hectic for all of us, so, I'm sorry, for disobeying your request.

I texted both. And I did not even dare to check whether did you receive it, read it, or the fact that I got blocked, I'm just too scared to find out. Thus I texted, and let it be. If due to the wishes any of you blocked me, then it's ok. At least after this I can text all the time, and just fall in my delusion that I'm actually telling you stuffs. 

So, today, my group did our presentation. Like finally. Since we're the last group to present. At first I don't know what to expect out of my team mates, since this is the first time I've worked with any of them. In short, I was quite worried. Even our slides was still not ready until 30 minutes before the presentation. And what's even more nervous-ing is that the lecturer's standard. Unpredictable. Some want so much details that you just wanna cry.

But. All is well. It went surprisingly good. I was so impressed. It was so smooth and everybody did great. I was so happy. Like seriously happy hehehe. The lecturer was even so interested that she asked for my team mates "good name". That's how good it was. We finished the class at 3.40PM or somewhat.

So after class, I went to the bank and did my Marena membership. That's Rs1500 out of my survival money T.T I almost cried doing it huhuhu. Then withdrew some money to pay Khairullah the camp we're going to which also cost more money. And then I went back. Rest for a few minutes, went to the mosque and pray. Afterwards I went to buy some groceries. Cooking oil, eggs, chicken, and some kacang panjang, and few spices that I randomly pick. See, I'm running out on money. The mass food I have with your choice are for emergencies and to last until next allowance, so, this is my resort, we'll cook. I mean, I cook, alone, eat alone. F***. This sucks.

Now as I type this, the IEC pamphlet is still waiting to be completed and I am out of ideas, and I'm hungry. I'm fasting today. All I had for sahur was oats+milo+condensed milk. Not seperately. Mix it all up and eat it. Well, at least I did had sahur right. Where was I? Oh yea IEC. Yea, we still have 3/4 of it to be done. And end posting exam is on Wednesday, I don't know how the questions are, what will be asked, the lecturer said read everything, and also few SDLs topics. I'm screwed. For real. If failing is impossible and meaningless in 3rd year, maybe it's time to try. I'm gonna cook my rice now. And then  iron some clothes, and then maybe start on the IEC or studying. If not I'll just lie down and get depressed or play games that will waste my time of which I will regret that decision later.