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Ever had one of those feelings when you just want to punch someone in the face or double fist his balls? I do. Until today, every single time I hear about the stupid, annoying, treacherous things he did my stomach twist, I feel so sick, feel like puking. I always said to myself "Ah, we just met. I'm sure he's not that bad of a person". Now most of the time it worked! I mean they all do have a side that I found finally and make me forgets about all their downside and we become friends! Simple! But, wow, is it just me or somehow I found someone so unbelievably weird that can make me feel so terrible. I mean, one problem after another. Come on, give it a rest! Hm, I don't get it.

You badmouth every single person that you want. And then, you said that it doesn't mean that way, you mean it the other way, the nicest of way. The most stupidest, idiotic, fucked up part is that, you think every single thing that I post, write or say is about you! Damn it! Don't be delusional!

I actually tried, so hard, to convinced myself that you are a good person. Someone that really cares for others, who respect others, whether they are you family, close friends, friends, or just someone that you know. But, my... You have no respect for us, at all. But in our back, you say that we have no respect for each other. What the fuck?! You fucking attention whore!

I'm sorry. Maybe we are at fault. Maybe we didn't try to understand you(fuck, we did try). Maybe we are not like your friends back when before we met. Maybe we are wrong. Yes I admit, we did have our wrong doings. We have our bad side. Mistakes we did. Things we've done that we aren't proud of. Just because you haven't done anything bad(that we kept our mouth shut about), does not mean you can fucking step over us.

Why? Why, must you make it so hard for all of us. I am guilty for my crimes. The others are to. We tried to mend things together again. And for some time, it worked out just well. Again, you strike. I do not understand. Really. You said that you want to become like we used to be. But why are you breaking us apart again? Please, I want us to be happy again. Without fake smiles and awkward laughter.

You said some nasty, mean stuff, stuff that obviously cross the fucking line about the people I love. Did I shout to you about it? No. I just kept my anger. I retracted. Because I know, even if I confront you, wait, even if we confront you, you twist your word so that it seems we are the one who thinks bad of you. So much for being a gentleman aye? Remember, will never forget what you say about her, forgive you? Don't hope on it. But I will let that go.

Are you worthy? Of course in your mind you are. The people around you? Well, as long as you benefit from them they are worthy, in not? Thrash they are. Aren't we just thrash to you. All I want, is that I can look at you at a side that I comfortable and not sick of. It is quite easy, as long as there are no problems caused by you. Stop back stabbing us.

It is a give and take theory, simple as that. We are accepting you for what you are(since you didn't have any weakness), so why not accept us for who we are and help us to be better(so you say).

We are having our chance to make things better. Why not use it properly? :) Here's a quote from Johnny Depp, he's kinda awesome :D

"I think the to do is enjoy the ride while you are on it"

Simple enough? That, is what makes me accept all of the emotions I feel in my life, sad, happy, excited, discouraged, pumped up, madly in love... So that's from me. Drop a comment, if you are brave enough. Come again, you are a great audience ;)